Chapter 55 Abuse in the Taking of my Childhood for Schoolwork




I am dyslexic and started tutoring with C.B.B.G.G. when I started second grade. This was when D.B. took custody of me from L.B. I was unable to read and write or do any schoolwork and was often in trouble for crying in school and for not getting any work done. I was not told that I was dyslexic I was told that my school problems stemmed from my L.B.’s abuse of me and the turmoil that came from being abused. This information should not have been kept from me as it caused me to have low self esteem and not to be accepting of my differences in learning. It also caused a delay in my obtaining assistance for my children’s inherited learning differences.

C.B.B.G.G. worked with me after school every day from 3:30 p.m. Monday through Friday without any breaks until 10:00pm or 10:30pm every day. I even had to work on workbooks during spring break and over the summer to prevent “regression” and keep my skills “sharp”.

 I also had A.D.D. and was made to sit and stare at a candle and a metronome was used to try and get me to focus better. I did not like these activity’s and they did no good at all. C.B.B.G.G. had gone to class to learn how to teach me as I was not grasping the material and she did not know what else to do. She told me she went to class and then started to teach me using the Orton-Gillingham method of teaching which I later learned myself by taking classes at the Bear Learning Center though the 32-degree Masonic Temple in South Bend.

During my tutoring sessions we went over every subject, all books had to be brought home from school every day even if I did not have homework to do in them. Everything was read aloud with C.B.B.G.G. and all questions had to be written out in complete sentences. Spelling words had to be studied and written ten times each every day. Sometimes I even had to write the definitions multiple times as well. Repetition, Repetition, Repetition. The multiplication tables were taught to me using sing songs, and audio tapes and by Repetition. If my handwriting was sloppy or letters not formed correctly, I was made to erase them and do them all over again until I had them perfect.

It was sometime in fifth grade that we started to study American History in school, at that time I no longer had to go to any form of extra assistance from the school for reading and math and it was C.B.B.G.G. that assisted me at home only. I started school at Nathan Hale Elementary in Chicago. We went over American History and family heritage was tied into it. Including that America was the melting pot and about my Swedish ancestors coming over on the boat to migrate here from Sweden.

Sometime during this period of time some things were said to me that I did not comprehend, one had to do with the Masons not being very good people and something about something bad happening to O.S.B. my great grandmother who had died when I was in third grade. C.B.B.G.G. also told me about how the people in the Family Heritage book had been killed and she said it was for Life Insurance. She also made comments to me when I was young about someday, I would be told or found out what she had done herself. Many of these conversations occurred in the middle bedroom of C.B.B.G.G.’s house and I was tired from all the work I had done.

Once while standing in the kitchen D.B. said something to me about how C.B.B.G.G. had done something to me and that I was due restitution for what she had done. I was told something about how because of what she had done her WILL was supposed to be changed and everything she had was supposed to go to me. I was young and confused and did not understand what was really being said and still don’t. It was alleged to me by D.B. that C.B.B.G.G. had poisoned me and fed me glass. I remember projectile vomiting Oatmeal all over the basement and do remember wondering who vomits from Oatmeal.